Showing posts with label bully bella. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bully bella. Show all posts

Saturday, July 17, 2010

stick figure saturday: i want my mommy!!!


it's that time again! my new favorite post theme. stick figure saturday! i literally look forward to this now (even though it's only been one week....whatever, i take the small things).

and right in time, too, because i feel like my creativity well has been tapped. this week, i have been worn down. you might have noticed (if you stop by on a regular basis). my baby got old. then i sobbed. then wednesday came, and was wonky and weird, and drove me insane. and then i was MIA thursday and friday. i'm kind of having a hard time remembering thursday, but i think i did something fun. or maybe not.

but i came back for saturday, because i like stick figures. they make me feel like a kid. and that is fitting. because i want my mommy.


that's me. in the fetal position. rocking back and forth. while my dog relieves herself on the carpet for the billiontieth time and the baby puts random bugs/turds/questionable things in her mouth.

i kind of feel crazy. motherhood has become that to me. i ask questions to my 7 month old, that usually require an answer. i talk out loud. to no one. i increasingly feel like a hermit. and like i wrote about the other day, i do the same things, over and over, expecting different results.

and what is the one thing that is guaranteed to cure what ails you? no, not a whole bottle of wine. YOUR MOMMY! well, my mommy. but you can't have her.

my mommy makes everything better. she lets me be me. and she watches my munchkin so i can eat/sleep/go potty/stare aimlessly at the wall. so i am counting down to the next time my mom can take over.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

bring on the sap!

i know i said no sappy post. and i meant it. 7 months is nothing to get sappy over (i mean, it's just another month of life! geez people, give me a break).

but i went to put bella down tonight like normal, and she went down like the perfect angel she is.

until i left to get ice cream (the devil).

i walk in the door (so excited about my ice cream, by the way), and joel is holding bella, tickling her and laughing.

my jaw hits the floor.

"WHY IS SHE AWAKE!?!?"

"umm. she wasn't just taking a nap?"

at 8:30? really?! when did bella start taking a nap at BEDTIME!?

::enter line of snarky comments directed at snarky husband from equally snarky wife::

so i try to put her back to bed. and for the next 3 hours, she screams her rants of protest. at one point i just lay her down and leave. finally, i queue up pandora on my phone and head in with a new found fervor for getting her to slumber land, and in a timely manner.

the bangles comes on. and i sing to her. and start sobbing. maybe from exhaustion. maybe because i haven't had a peaceful moment today (between her whining/crying/not napping, the dog vomiting/crapping all over the house, and trying to clean the mess from the dog vomiting/crapping all over the house). maybe because, when i sing a song, i really feel the lyrics. and this is what i sang...

When the daylight disappears
When you're haunted, I'll be near
When the shadows come to call
When you're too scared to stand tall
I can stand tall
Dream and let your dreams go
It's your turn to fly
Long as I'm standing by
You can close your eyes
I will take care of you
Long as you want me to
Whatever else I do
I will take care of you
Don't you worry, while you sleep
All my love is yours to keep
All you wish for, all you know
Will be yours when you let go
You can let go
Smile, if you can now
Smile through your tears
Here where your fears are known
Know you're safe at home
I will take care of you
Long as you want me to
Whatever else I do
I will take care of you
I will take care of you
Long as you want me to
Whatever else I do
I will take care of you...

goodnight, my sweet little 7 month old. sleep tight, knowing i will take care of you.

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Monday, July 12, 2010

my kid will beat up your kid.


today was bella's {read, mommy's} first play group! a group of spouses from the base, at jumpin jax. i don't know why i waited so long to do this.

well, this might have something to do with it.


my kid's a biter. i think she bit like 3 kids? ::hangs head in shame::

i mean, how do you teach an almost 7 month old (what!? when did that happen?) that biting is not ok? each time she did it, i would say, "no bite! not nice!" very sternly, and she would look at me, like this.


because she is rotten.

i am going to have my hands full for, like....the rest of my life.

next play group? well, let's just say it should involve copious amounts of wine, and be scheduled for after bella's bedtime.