my brain has been all over the place the last few weeks, and my heart has been very heavy. most of it, i can't really talk about in a public forum like this, and because it consumes my thoughts, i have simply not written anything of substance in a long time.
and some of it, is just difficult to explain. i tap out a long post, only to read it and find myself saying, "what was i even talking about?"
i'm going to go with my better judgement, and i am going to keep these things to myself for now. they may come out later. i just felt the need to explain my absence and somber tone lately.
now, onto silly things.
we have new neighbors. they are.....
i don't like to pass judgement about a person the moment i meet them, but sometimes, people make it hard.
neighbor lady: (standing outside in the backyard smoking, her 3 year old son running around)
me: hi! did you guys just move in? (i mean...duh...but i had to open it somewhere, right?)
nl: yeah, we just closed friday. now we're guttin' the place.
me: nice. well welcome and congrats on your new house.
nl: your dogs mean?
me: um. no. oh the fence? we put that up because one of our dogs is a jumper. but they are not mean at all. (i say, as duke is barking like a mad man at their dogs)
nl: just checkin. i seen that fence and thought maybe they were biters or sumthin.
me: nope. just jumpers.
nl: you got a kid??
me: (looks around at all the toys scattered around the backyard) yep, just one. she's about 17 months.
nl: (takes a long drag off her cigarette): yah, we just got this un here (the wild banshee child, running around and screaming at the top of his lungs), and i'm due with our second in september.
and those are our neighbors! yay us!!