bring on the sap!

i know i said no sappy post. and i meant it. 7 months is nothing to get sappy over (i mean, it's just another month of life! geez people, give me a break).

but i went to put bella down tonight like normal, and she went down like the perfect angel she is.

until i left to get ice cream (the devil).

i walk in the door (so excited about my ice cream, by the way), and joel is holding bella, tickling her and laughing.

my jaw hits the floor.

"WHY IS SHE AWAKE!?!?"

"umm. she wasn't just taking a nap?"

at 8:30? really?! when did bella start taking a nap at BEDTIME!?

::enter line of snarky comments directed at snarky husband from equally snarky wife::

so i try to put her back to bed. and for the next 3 hours, she screams her rants of protest. at one point i just lay her down and leave. finally, i queue up pandora on my phone and head in with a new found fervor for getting her to slumber land, and in a timely manner.

the bangles comes on. and i sing to her. and start sobbing. maybe from exhaustion. maybe because i haven't had a peaceful moment today (between her whining/crying/not napping, the dog vomiting/crapping all over the house, and trying to clean the mess from the dog vomiting/crapping all over the house). maybe because, when i sing a song, i really feel the lyrics. and this is what i sang...

When the daylight disappears

When you're haunted, I'll be near

When the shadows come to call

When you're too scared to stand tall

I can stand tall

Dream and let your dreams go

It's your turn to fly

Long as I'm standing by

You can close your eyes

I will take care of you

Long as you want me to

Whatever else I do

I will take care of you

Don't you worry, while you sleep

All my love is yours to keep

All you wish for, all you know

Will be yours when you let go

You can let go

Smile, if you can now

Smile through your tears

Here where your fears are known

Know you're safe at home

I will take care of you

Long as you want me to

Whatever else I do

I will take care of you

I will take care of you

Long as you want me to

Whatever else I do

I will take care of you...

goodnight, my sweet little 7 month old. sleep tight, knowing i will take care of you.